Well, guess who's back with a moral and mental break down! It's me, bitches and bastards. Look, here's a problem I've got. We, as civilised entities, likely want to be good people, right? No one wants to be a bad person. I firmly believe that everyone, and I really mean everyone, wants to be a good person. That's why most people try to rationalise bad actions, like you know, rape being the victims fault in the mind of the perp, even if that's not even remotely close to how things work at all.
Which brings me to my point. How does one understand or come to the concluse that you are actually a good person. To an extant, you are incapible of never fucking up at least once. We know for a fact that humans are incapible of perfection, so therefore it is impossible for people to have not fucked up at least once in their lives. So, how and when do you consider the important line ought to be drawn between a regular human and a horrible person?
The problem which I keep running into, at least in my head, is it's likely impossible for me to not mess up, and wholly illogical for me to figure out how people want me to act. 'Cause, look, I don't want to be a bad person. Believe it or not but 'Ol Fen here is not actually all that rebellous. I want to be a good person, but how the fuck are you supposed to figure out how everyone precives everything. If that makes sense?
Like let me give a example, somewhere on the interent a contriversy happened where someonmbne who was working at an American resturant or something, I am not American, and there was a plastic skeleton that was hung up. Apparently that is racist. Now here's my problem, some people claimed that it was racist, while others claimed it is not. And look, I run into a massive challenge as by how most people explain how racism works and all that that white people, which I functionally fall under if I am to be assumed as human, are unrealiable in spotting what is racism.
Esentially what I am getting at is how the flying fuck is one to figure out the more nuanced bullshit under everything as to if it is is not morally upstanding. Like again with the skeleton, as one can assume I am not realiable enough of a source on if something is racist or not, how am I to figure out if something else is likely bad as well.
I don't fucking know man. I don't think intent should matter all that much if someone is hurt at the end of the day, so fate doesn't matter at all. I just don't know how this is supposed to work quite frankly. I don't if I am a bad person, and self diagnosis is not something that I trust as bias is blinding quite frankly, plus confirmation bias, so fuck it. Honestly, man, I'm not sure if I ought to just be a full shut in at this point.